had a new years kiss.
and i’ve had boyfriends on new years eve night!
how does that work?
this time im not going to give up until i reach my goal.
that one silly comment fucked with my mind too much to just let it slide anymore.
im not going to do it for you.
im going to do it for me
so that i can be confident and sure of myself.
and just for the heck of it, i will be able to rightfully laugh in your face.
i am going to prove you wrong, and you will stare at me in adoration.
all im going to do then
is flash you my beautiful smile
and turn around to leave your shitty house.
you will probably never even remember what you told me in the first place,
but i will.
and you sure as hell better know that i will remind you of it.
im tired of it being in the back of my mind constantly.
im so tired of how i feel.
thats why, i will not give up this time.
im going to reach my goal, and im going to do it the right way.
next time you see me, watch out
because you are definitely going to regret ever thinking that about me
.. so, so much.
to everybody who’s been there for me this week.
…. oh wait.